I am one with the furniture...

DAY 22...




Wow, quite a terrible day...

I came back yesterday afternoon from my weekend at home. I honestly was dreading coming back to this place, although I’m supposed to be here to get n education, I cant help but to think of all the things I’m missing out on, especially just being with my family. I am an extremely individual person who seriously does not mind being alone, at times. But the one thing I do wish and do crave is being with my family. There is a sense of hope I find with them that I can not find anywhere else. That sense of hope that I know I need, I know is vital to my sense of being and my growth.
I get that whole thing that a person needs to be by themselves to allow space and maturity to exceed within, but seriously, I don’t know, I think a day on my own is far more than enough.
You know how people can confide in friends or partners or you know whoever, well I don’t have that, all I have is my family, all I have is my sister. I guess that is what Klaus and Fritz are for, but let’s be serious here, they speak Fish German! And don’t get me wrong, I have met some amazing people, but it’s not the same, in some weird way, I need my sister like others need sleep in order to survive. I need that freedom I can only find in my home.

This res way of life can seriously get to my head, and it is!
for instance, this evening Prof Baart is having a talk on galaxies, and guess who can not attend... exactly. And do you know why? Well Olive Schriener has decided to have a compulsory house meeting, and no I can not get out of it, because I have asked too late. This sort of thing makes me extremely angry. And I’m losing out here.

ahhhhh I wont speak too much about my res life as yet.

So today I got up early, as usual. Cleaned my room and headed out to town to deposit my money, hectic queue, like so long, so headed back, read my book, oh im reading Everything Ravaged, Everything Burned by Wells Tower, which is a collection of short stories. Anyway, so I read, then went to classics, enjoyed it, as we are learning about sculpture. Then went straight to art, which I dreaded! and for good reason, we were having our photography crit.
the crit took forever and I had to come back in the afternoon for mine. So I went back to res, and read...
then went back to the crit, Brent told me he liked it but I need to change a lot because hes seen it all before.
eish

anyway, then I went back to the bank, and to my surprize the queue was even longer, but I decided I'd wait in it... Then people started screaming at me and pushing me and it became too chaotic, I left. while walking back, i was harassed by a street kid, who thought that air kissing me was the way forward. He then called me a "slut" and swore under his breath...
In my state, i resorted to fudge and caramel icecream at Dulce's and it truely made all alright.
I got back in time for supper and was able to share a great laugh with the girls.

I am going out tonight.

Before I leave,
I am still upset that I couldnt go to that lecture
I dislike photography to the core
I have 8 days to get ready and finish stuff up for my art prac exam.
I have a month till my classics and art history exams.
I plan to go home during this massive time gap
I love marmite
I miss the one person that felt like home for me here.... he knows who he is.
Snowbelle is the most amazing cat
you better check out the new annoying orange episode (the wasaaabi one)
I have so much work and I feel that tomorrow all will be organised....


chat soonest

stay warm and stay good
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