late night rantings

everywhere we drove today I saw South African flags, I take it that everyone is getting super hyped about this world cup thing, well at least trying to be.
Its so nice, like everyone has this in common at the moment. Right now nothing else seems to matter, even though the roads aren't complete, the transport is a disaster and crime is at an all time peak, there is some sort of vibe in the air, that when I see the SA flag waving from a persons car, i become oblivious to all these petty 'worries'.
It just seems so COOL that this country is hosting such a major event, and no matter what the outcome is, or how much negativity goes down, or even if the tourists are absolutely shocked at the state of this place, it makes me sort of happy to know that people are positive, that there is some hope for the country with the amount of support the regular person is showing.... I smile when I see the flag.
I smile when I hear the adverts and the excitement on the radio.
I smile when I see people wearing those awful yellow tops.
I smile because, well,  I don't know a thing about soccer, I don't think I like soccer, but I love how everyone loves this country, I smile because somewhere there is some belief in it.

hahaha goodness.... well I'm not in Gtown atm, I'm at home, have been for 6 days... I'm going back on Saturday. its a long story of how I came to be here, but is a story for another day.but as for now, in my semi asleep state, I would like to mention how much I love home, I love being here but I don't dread going back to Gtown, I don't dread having to sleep in that room, I don't and mainly because I do like it there, I don't hate it, I like how my life has lead me there, I pretty much love it there.... its all meant to be. But I have to admit, It makes it SO much easier knowing that my family, is just 1.5 hours away....

anyway I will fill you in with my adventure when I get back...

as for now, I'm exhausted, my mind is racing with things i cant possibly put into words, as hard as I have tried.. it all these pictures and ideas and longings.... ahhh killer

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